Goodbye SPM

Finally finished chemistry paper, so left chinese only..
Means don't have to study already, can fly already..
I have to enjoy the remaining 1 month already, i'm in the first batch of the national service.. Have to go report on 4th jan, then take the bus to SG. Bakap at Seberang Prai..
Actually i'm not sure if we can go out from the camp once a week.. If we can then that's good la, at least i can go back maybe twice a month.. What i hate about it is I have to be in there for my birthday.. It's gonna be the most-boring birthday ever for me.. Plus everyone can have longer hairs now, but not me.. I have to be just like the last 5 years during my birthday and of course the chinese new year.. I think there will be only few days holiday for CNY.. SIEN!! CNY should be 15 days what.. That's what CNY really is.. So instead of wearing red shirts, you will be seeing me wearing green shirts to pass most of the days of CNY..
Anyhow, some of my friends did tell me that NS is fun.. I think it will be la, but don't you think salary of RM15 per month is way too little? If i work in penang, i could earn the total salary for three month in NS by not more than 2 weeks..
Anyway, i really hope that after coming back from NS things will changed, hope that i won't be dreaming too much again.. For your information, i like to imagine, you can say i'm a good imaginer.. Almost everyday i imagine about anything, no limit.. But imagine and dream were not same right? I'm quite confused sometimes too.. I'm not clear when i'm dreaming and when i'm imagining..

Argh, i'm boring now..
I've been sitting in front of the computer for half of the days..
Please sun, sleep earlier.. Moon and stars, wake earlier.. I'm waiting for you moon..

On leave

Finish 3 subject already, phew~~
Finally I can drop history and forgot about it already..
Going to have 3 days holiday..
Hmmm.. today reast first, tommorrow only continue my journey.. haha

Honestly, sometimes i really don't have the feeling of sitting big exam..
The mood is just ain't right.. I was like damn relaxing and sometimes even never thought about it.. Guess what? I went to watch 2012 with my friends twice already..
I hope relaxing really can get my mind clear and think more, so i can do better in my exam.. haha
If it goes wrong, i'm gonna die when the result come out..
Owh yaya, wanna recommend a movie, 2012 of course.. Damn nice man
Nice computer graphic, quite exciting.. Should go and watch friends, especially those who are taking SPM.. Relax your mind, when your mind is full, you can't pour in anymore.. The way to fill in more is to empty your mind first.. Geng leh? I got this thought in the movie too..
My advice- Don't just keep studying, you need some deep breathe, so that you can go further...

Out of idea already, so it's time to say goodbye..
Pibye

I saw you coming, SPM

yeah yeah, i'm here again..
Countdown for SPM-9 days.. How come times pass so fast?
Hello, one week is just like one day for me leh.. Why? I also don't know
9 more days, have to wear my uniform again, and driving my motor early in the morning to school while shaking cause of the cold.. That's not the point, the main thing is i'm gonna sit in the hall and there goes, SPM!!!
Spm ah, do you know you sounds like a vampire for me? You're sucking all my blood and making me DRY!
I'm feeling kinda weird, cause sometimes i feel nervous because spm is coming, but sometimes i can be very relax..
SPM, Si Pek Mahuan ahh.. No matter how long i study also can't finish de wor.. When i think i finish then another one came up.. WAA... Infinity ah, endless..

I guess i have to sleep earlier and get up early tomorrow morning to continue my JOURNEY to A's already..

I had a big surprise, not very big la, but so unexpected..

Okayy, enough enough..
Bye bye and Good night TO ME
Good luck to all my friends.. *winks

P/s:Happy Birthday to my cistar

Another vid by NAMEWEE

梦，
“什么来的？”
只能说，人人有别。
对我来说，
梦，其实也可以是现实。
晚上睡觉做梦，
是我最真实的一面。
大白天做白日梦，
这梦就是我最想要或最想它发生的。
梦，
虽然说它不一定会成真，
但人如果没有梦，
生活就缺少了一大片的火花。
梦，
也许就是我们的指南针，
让我们认清方向。
想想，如果你拥有一幅地图，
但你却没有指南针，这地图该怎么用呢？
梦，
是值得我们去追求的，
但不可强求。
梦，
它永远不会消失。
就算不能成真，也可以继续保留，
因为只要有梦在，什么事都是可能的。
机率可能很微小，但至少还有嘛。
梦，
如果太过执著，那就不在是梦。
它可能会变成是一种要求。
追求自己的梦，是幸福的。
没努力，就放弃自己的梦，多可惜！多可悲！
梦，
不能成真，就让它藏在心里。
成真，请好好珍惜。

梦，
就是希望。
我的梦，还在。
希望，依然存在。
达之与否，不是重点。
重点是，我，曾经努力过。

Drunk in the party

Phewww~~ Finally i can update my blog.. Kinda busy for these few days..
First, we had our graduation day on friday..
Very not fun at the beginning, cause we actually went through it for a few times(cause there is rehearsal).. Unfortunately, there's some suprise(can say so gua), we have some special activity, one of it is the singing section.. Quite cool har.. Really gonna miss my high school life, especially my friends and some of the teachers perhaps.. Hmmm.. There's sweet memories and bad memories i had here, anyway, i'm really glad to be in this school, every of the memory makes grow up..

On saturday, a big birthday party for my bro MK.. Really quite a big one.. Went out at 12 that day.. Since then, i've never been free.. Drive here and there, fetch here and there.. Quite tired but i like it when the party goes smoothly.. I'm drunk that night, and i know i gone wild.. Actually i wanted to say sorry to those i have been rude to, especially audrey's mom.. This is the first time i drink so much, i mean beer, the feeling is quite good at first, a bit dizzy but won't feel uncomfort.. But after that, vomit like hell, some more can't control myself sometimes.. Luckily i didn't do something really very bad, haha.. I may not be fully concious but i still know what i am doing, and this is what make me realized of one thing, not gonna tell what it is but i can tell you that's good for me.

Sunday.. Drunk a lot last night, so i thought i would be sleeping til the noon.. Hell, that small thing go and press the bell and woke up everyone.. She thought that she is very clever cause she can get this idea. Halo, that is not clever at all... Went to kfc before home.. Reached about 3..

Phewww... Finally this busy weekend come to an end.. Planned for this party long time ago, quite happy to see it goes successfully..

Party is over.. Look in front, SPM is just 2 weeks away.. OH MY GOD.. Ooops, have to go study again already.. See ya

Wrong

My life is messed up, but what can i do? I wonder..
My life had been like this for this two years.
Now, it makes me feel even worst, never feel this bad..
Maybe this is what so called destiny, i can just sit down, and keep accepting the truth..
Time really goes fast, things too, change fast.. Even one's heart, feeling, change just in the next second.
i live myself, and so, like my blog descriptions, i live for myself..
I do want everything to change, but what can i do?
Once a time, i do really feel that was the one, but now, everything just goes wrong.. No more no more..
Everything is gone..
How will my life be? Only god knows..
I hope spm ends tommorrow, then i will leave, but still wondering, where can i go? Anywhere but not here, just for a few weeks perhaps? Let me take a deep breath, alone.